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“Why would she make something like that up?” my mother asked, her voice trembling.
Sophie sobbed harder, claiming she had seen me near the safe the night before, claiming I had always resented her because she was more successful, more confident, more everything. What she did not say, what she could not afford to say, was that she had a gambling problem that had quietly spiraled out of control. I knew about it because months earlier she had come to me in tears, swearing she needed help, promising she would stop. I kept her secret because I thought that was what a good brother did.
That silence became my noose.
I wasn’t just kicked out of their house. I was erased.
What hurt even more was what came next. Eighteen thousand dollars of student loan money, meant to help me finish my engineering degree, money that had been sitting untouched for months, was handed to Sophie to “help her recover from the trauma.” I nearly dropped out of school. I worked night shifts at a warehouse, studied until my vision blurred, and survived on instant noodles and pride. One professor noticed I was slipping and encouraged me to apply for a scholarship I never thought I’d qualify for.
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